zeldathemes
Just an optimist
with experience
This is basically just an online trash can for the things I have to get out of my head and heart. It's nothing compared to writing on pen and paper, really. But I figured this is a good alternative for now.
Oh and my name's Jona, btw.
»
  #♥  
Expected days/weeks to finish: 3 weeks.
Days/weeks left: 3 days.
  #The OJT Adventures    #hahhhahahah yay me  
May kaibigan ka ba na may matagal nang naka-relasyon (more than 3 years of relationship) pero iniwanan lang siya with unanswered questions? Kamusta na siya ngayon? Tell me his/her story. Gusto ko talaga ng mga ganitong klaseng kwento eh. Thanks!

Anonymous

As a matter of fact, I do. Or not. I’m not sure if this is the story you want but… There’s this girl na sobrang close sakin. They’ve been together nung guy for 5 years when it started to fall apart.

That’s from high school hanggang sa makagraduate sila ng college [yung girl, at least] at nagkatrabaho. Yung samahan nila eh chill lang pero fun. They grew together, at sobrang nakabisado na nila yung isa’t-isa. Magkapitbahay pa sila so sobrang dali lang na magkita. Tapos yung families din nila eh tanggap yung relationship kasi kung tutuusin, sa panahon ngayon, ideal talaga sya saka kita mong masaya sila eh. Basta inseparable lang talaga, nung sila pa nga, iniisip ko na gusto ko maging ganun din ka-enjoyable yung samahan namin nung magiging boyfriend ko in the future eh.

Anyway, hindi ko alam kung ano exactly yung naging unang issue kasi finifilter ni girl yung mga kinukwento nya sakin, knowing na mas matanda sya sakin ng 4 years and idk, maybe she thinks I can’t handle it. Or pwede ring dahil sa ayaw nyang masira yung guy sakin, kasi kuya-kuyahan ko rin yun eh [kahit di ko sya tinatawag na kuya. LOL].

Pero based on my eavesdropping and observations, I figured na maybe one of the issues [again, not sure if this was a minor or a major problem] was sex. The girl thinks it’s too early and the guy thinks otherwise. Then the guy started to lie and/or not tell the girl his whereabouts, or whom he’s with. I remember the girl sobbing in front of me, telling me, “dati ako lang may alam kung nasan s’ya, ngayon ako nalang hindi may alam.” As expected, there’s the generic third party issue na dinedeny lang nang dinedeny kahit huling huli na. Laging may katext pag may kasama sila pero hindi pinapa-hiram yung phone. Typical, typical, typical. There was so much crying, and it was painful to see her like that. May isa pa syang sinabi na tumatak sa isip ko eh. “Yung 5 years na yun, parang buong buhay ko na yun eh.” And again, of course, umiiyak sya habang sinasabi nya yan. Lagi nya pang soundtrip yung Okay Lang Ako by Parokya ni Edgar.

Sidenote: During the later part of the BS phase above, there’s another guy who was kinda into her, but that’s a whole different story.

It was on or after the guy’s birthday when the girl decided to end the relationship. Ang alam ko may surprise pa nga si girl nun sakanya eh, like any other birthdays na dumaan nang sila pa. Kaso nagagaguhan na din talaga siguro yung girl so tinake nya yung risk na bumitaw nalang, pinatapos nalang din siguro nya yung araw na yun.

After ng break up, nagkaroon ng celebration tapos nalasing sya. Dahil first time nyang malasing, at sobrang broken nya, ang dami nyang sinabi nung gabing yun. The most iconic one was this. “Nakita ko sila! Magkasama sila! Ang saya saya nila!” And again, while crying. She did so many things to be okay. Kahit na lagi syang nadadapa sa journey nya into moving on dahil sa confused pa sya kung gusto nya na nga ba i-give up, basta bumabalik lang sya nang bumabalik on track. Isa to sa mga inaadmire ko sakanya, and I’m so glad na hindi nawala sakanya yung characteristic na yun even after what she’s been through.

Being her, she waited for three months for him to make a move. Mag-effort manlang ba na masettle yung issues nila, mapag-usapan what went wrong, at syempre gusto nya sanang mag-effort manlang si guy na magbalikan sila. Kaso kasi, hindi ganun yung lalaki eh. Ang problema dun, sya yung ganung kind nga tao sakanilang dalawa. May pagka mahiyain kasi si guy [pero ang kapal ng mukha manggago. LOL] saka basta, hindi sya ganong klaseng tao.

Dumaan yung tatlong buwan na yun, pero walang pag-reach out mula sa guy na nangyari. Which was sad, because it wasn’t really that hard kung iisipin mo. They have TONS of common friends he could’ve asked for help kung nahihiya sya. He knows the girl’s whole family, and their houses were a three-minute walking distance. There’s just so many ways sana, pero wala eh. Hinayaan nya lang. So that’s when she got her shit straight, and actually decided to focus on herself and be okay.

Di rin nagtagal, eh naging okay sila nung other guy na nasa sidenote ko kanina. She made sure she was okay and ready to be in a relationship again bago nya sagutin, almost a year din yun.

Ang sad part dun, nung okay na si girl dun sa guy na bago eh saka lang naglakas ng loob yung ex nya na makipag-usap, na makipag-balikan. Di nagtagal eh nagka-baby si girl dun sa bago nya so nagpakasal sila agad. Nakakalungkot pa dun lalo eh di naman sobrang binroadcast yung wedding kasi nga biglaan, as in one-month preparation lang. Tapos, nalaman lang ni guy na ikakasal na si girl nung narinig nya sa Tawag sa Kasal dun sa parish namin. Nung una nga daw di ya pinaniwalaan eh. Tapos nung nagsimba ulit sya sa ibang simbahan (pero same diocese lang so same announcements lang) eh narinig nya tas dun lang sya naniwala. Naglasing pa nga daw sila nun nung friends nya na kapatid ng best friend ko e. Nagsisisi daw syempre, pero wala na nang magagawa.

So ngayon, eto, may sarili nang pamilya si girl tapos si boy eh nagpapaka-good boy na daw ayon sa mga kakilala namin. Mas focused nalang din sa family, at di maconfirm-confirm kung may girlfriend nga ba o wala. Pero mukhang okay na naman sya e. Or at least, wala naman kasing ibang dapat gawin kundi tanggapin. Si babae naman eh okay na rin, di na bitter and nakapag-forgive na unti-unti.

Di pa nila napag-uusapan talaga lahat ng tungkol sa breakup nila pero sa estado nila ngayoon eh mukhang di naman na kelangan. Pero feeling ko okay lang din kung mangyayari yun. Kahit na okay na silang dalawa sa panahon na yun. At least, diba? Kahit naman kasi di mo iinda yung isang bagay, mas okay parin na di sya kainda-inda.

So, ayun. Feel na feel ko magkwento eh. Hays~

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Max Ehrmann
  #Max Ehrmann    #Desiderata    #still the best  

Isipin mo… Sa isang lifetime, ilang beses kang makakaramdam ng tunay na pagmamahal mula sa isang tao? Ilang beses kang makaka-buo ng relasyong maipagmamalaki mo kasi alam mong totoo yung samahan nyo? Ilang beses kang makaka-encounter nung makakasama mo’t alam mo sa sarili mo na masaya ka? Yung satisfied ka, hindi lang nag-eenjoy. Yung proud ka, yung walang but’s, yung may understanding, yung may respect, yung may fun, yung makakapagbigay sayo ng tears of joy. Hindi ko sinabing kailangang maging perfect, kasi imposible yun. Pero yung worth it kahit imperfect, ilang beses kang makakadama ng ganun? So once na nanjan na, i-cherish mo, ipaglaban mo, damhin mo, effortan mo. Kasi ilang beses ka lang iibig nang ganyan. Ilang beses lang.

  #♥    #hugot po    #mukako    #since i can't post things like this on facebook bc my mom would prolly negatively reast    #welp  
calumslapsmybass:

wAS THIS 15 YEAR OLD CALUM? IM FUMING, PEOPLE SAY I ONLY LIKE HIM CAUSE HE’S 18 AND WENT THROUGH PUBERTY BUT FUCK I’D CUDDLE THE SHIT OUT OF FETUS CALUM AW LOOK AT HIM, DO YOU KNOW HOW 15 YEAR OLDS LOOK IN MY AREA? 15 YEAR OLDS IN MY AREA DONT LOOK LIKE THIS. THEY SPIKE UP THEIR HAIR WITH EXCESSIVE AMOUNTS OF HAIR GEL, WEAR SKIN TIGHT V NECKS AND LISTEN TO REALLY ANGRY RAP MUSIC AND THINK THEY’RE SWAG. AUSTRALIA WHAT THE SHIT IS IN YOUR WATER TO CREATE BOYS LIKE THIS.

calumslapsmybass:

wAS THIS 15 YEAR OLD CALUM? IM FUMING, PEOPLE SAY I ONLY LIKE HIM CAUSE HE’S 18 AND WENT THROUGH PUBERTY BUT FUCK I’D CUDDLE THE SHIT OUT OF FETUS CALUM AW LOOK AT HIM, DO YOU KNOW HOW 15 YEAR OLDS LOOK IN MY AREA? 15 YEAR OLDS IN MY AREA DONT LOOK LIKE THIS. THEY SPIKE UP THEIR HAIR WITH EXCESSIVE AMOUNTS OF HAIR GEL, WEAR SKIN TIGHT V NECKS AND LISTEN TO REALLY ANGRY RAP MUSIC AND THINK THEY’RE SWAG. AUSTRALIA WHAT THE SHIT IS IN YOUR WATER TO CREATE BOYS LIKE THIS.

  #look at him    #what the fuck cal    #how the fuck  

Nung isang gabi.

Suot ko yung brown na Artwork shirt ko, saka yung high waisted na shorts ko nung gabing yun. Kakatapos lang namin kumain ng cup noodles na may kasamang Rebisco crackers tapos Kopiko black na kape so mejo lasa pa sa dila ko yung mga yun.

Malamig, naka-Indian seat ako tapos nakapatong yung Italiano jacket ko sa legs ko. Nasa left side ako nung mahabang upuan so nakadikit yung right leg ko sa left leg nya.

Background songs from 5SOS. Malakas enough para di sya marinig kung magsalita man sya, saka yung radio na tumutugtog sa baba. Pero okay lang yun kasi nakikita ko sa peripheral vision ko na naka-earphones din sya. At imposibleng mahina lang yun.

Dapat tinatrabaho ko yung pag-redesign ng thesis namin eh. Kaso wala talagang pumapasok na ideas sakin, bumabalik lang ako sa lumang design. So ginagawa ko yung project ko sa OJT, yung offline automated hybrid system. Nakakatulong na rin yung nakikita ko na nagpo-program din sya nung sa Software Engineering nila.

Honestly, di ko inaasahang maiintindihan ko yung mga tungkol sa ginawa ko. Mejo matagal ko na kasing inaaral yun, pero nung gabing yun ko lang sobrang naintindihan yung framework and other stuff. Pero wala eh.

Ang masaya dun, kapag mejo nawawala ako sa ginagawa ko, ilang galaw lang eh na-kiss ko na sya. Ilang galaw lang, nakayakap na ko. Ilang galaw lang, naka-lambing na ko tapos okay na ulit.

Tapos yung isang okay pa dun eh alam nila Mama na nandun ako. Na gumagawa kami nang sabay, kahit may konting tagilid sa details eh one step forward na yun para sakin.

Sana nga maulit eh, kahit naman kasi ginagawa na talaga namin yun before, eh mas okay yung feeling nung isang gabi.

  #The OJT Adventures    #kolehiyana    #♥  
risarodil:

And if you live in the Philippines, I hope you’re safe. Keep warm and stay indoors!

risarodil:

And if you live in the Philippines, I hope you’re safe. Keep warm and stay indoors!

  #di ko to nakita nun    #hays  

Rehearsals daw bukas para sa General Assembly. Kasama kami kasi contestant kami ng Dance Competition, at nawa’y manalo kaming muli nang first place sa Friday.

Nakakatuwa parin talaga na nai-push namin makasali dito kahit every weekend lang practice namin at isang beses palang kami nakumpleto. This is how you make the best of your last year in college. Hahaha.

Aaay nako, nakaka-excite. For sure mamimiss ko nanaman magpagod kakasayaw kapag tapos na yung event. Ge. Ulet-ulet.

  #kolehiyana    #The OJT Adventures    #campose  
Me: Ano apelyido ni Skype? =))
L: Ano? XD
Me: Lakes. WAHAHAHAHHAHAH.
L: Puta.
Me: HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHA!!!
L: Bwiset ka. XD
  #♥    #pasalamat daw ako    #thank you lol    #kasalanan ni sir mic lol  
If you hear His voice today, harden not your heart.
  #thank you po  
I want to remember this night, lalo’t dahil isa to sa mga unforgettable tropa moments sa buong buhay ko (so far). Honestly, nagulat din talaga ako na natuloy kami dito kasi unang gala namin talaga to. Mas natutuloy talaga kapag biglaan. Lol. So nung na-settle yung plano na sasama kami 2 days before the fest, naisip ko na agad na kailangang kong sobrang enjoyin yung gabing yun. At nangyari naman yun. So… Yehey!
OKTOBERFEST NAAAA~!!!

I want to remember this night, lalo’t dahil isa to sa mga unforgettable tropa moments sa buong buhay ko (so far). Honestly, nagulat din talaga ako na natuloy kami dito kasi unang gala namin talaga to. Mas natutuloy talaga kapag biglaan. Lol. So nung na-settle yung plano na sasama kami 2 days before the fest, naisip ko na agad na kailangang kong sobrang enjoyin yung gabing yun. At nangyari naman yun. So… Yehey!

OKTOBERFEST NAAAA~!!!

  #smboktoberfest2014    #mukako    #kolehiyana    #yas  

There are things you keep to yourself just because. And that’s okay.

  #it's all okay  

Nagstart ako sa OJT nang mag-isa sa SDS. Pinag-apply ko dun sila Fred, Ron at Gelo para may kasama ako. Ngayon at lumipat na ko sa BCH, nauna pang matapos sina Levie at Yahj sakin. So matatapos ako sa OJT nang mag-isa din.

  #parang life    #lol    #The OJT Adventures  
Some people are like songs. You fall for them right away on the first few lines.
Chad Lazaro (via buhaybabae)
  #bby